Tag Archives: grief

The yearn to converse with you

It’s like an ache, not just this realisation that it is impossible, but an actual physical sensation. Starting as a burning flutter in the chest, a butterfly on fire trapped in a cage, knocking against the chest walls willing to escape. The ache travels up the throat, grasping around it. The brains way of remindingContinue reading “The yearn to converse with you”

The trauma of a loved ones cancer diagnosis

Today marks one year since my husband’s diagnosis. 365 days, since life changed in an instant.  You can read about what led to my husbands diagnosis here. The reality is that when you are forced to face something scary, your body has this amazing response of protection. Your body goes into a kind of survival.Continue reading “The trauma of a loved ones cancer diagnosis”

Today marks 5 months

It’s been 5 months. I thought I’d be ok by now or at least somewhat more ok, functioning, working. Doing most of the things that I used to do before my life is turned upside down. I feel as lost today as I did 5 months ago. To be honests  as soon as Daniel gotContinue reading “Today marks 5 months”

10 reasons why Ricky Gervais’ After life resonates with me as a new Widow.

This blog Contains series spoilers Despite my friends and family telling me ‘it is too soon’, ‘it will be too hard’ to watch all three seasons of After life, It was the most cathartic thing I have done since starting my new journey into widow hood. After life was a series both my Husband andContinue reading “10 reasons why Ricky Gervais’ After life resonates with me as a new Widow.”

100 reasons why I am grateful to my Husband

Today is 100 days since My Husband’s journey in this life ended. To mark the day, I have written a list of the 100 reasons I am beyond Grateful for my husband. I am so lucky, and honoured to have met and married this incredible Man. For our first kiss in France, 2002 For theContinue reading “100 reasons why I am grateful to my Husband”

Taking the good days with the bad

Yesterday I had my first very public breakdown/ panic attack. I don’t know if I am embarrassed today or not. I don’t know what I feel. Sometimes the sadness in my eyes can’t be hidden, which is fine, sometimes tears roll down my face and can’t be stopped, but yesterday as I was stood inContinue reading “Taking the good days with the bad”

The stillness after death

The weeks that follow bereavement seems to be the quietest of all. My voice, my writing have been my survival mode since March 2021, that’s exactly why I started this blog only two weeks after Daniel passed, yet as time has gone by, I felt my words and my thoughts escaping me more and more.Continue reading “The stillness after death”