It’s like an ache, not just this realisation that it is impossible, but an actual physical sensation. Starting as a burning flutter in the chest, a butterfly on fire trapped in a cage, knocking against the chest walls willing to escape. The ache travels up the throat, grasping around it. The brains way of remindingContinue reading “The yearn to converse with you”
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The trauma of a loved ones cancer diagnosis
Today marks one year since my husband’s diagnosis. 365 days, since life changed in an instant. You can read about what led to my husbands diagnosis here. The reality is that when you are forced to face something scary, your body has this amazing response of protection. Your body goes into a kind of survival.Continue reading “The trauma of a loved ones cancer diagnosis”
Today marks 5 months
It’s been 5 months. I thought I’d be ok by now or at least somewhat more ok, functioning, working. Doing most of the things that I used to do before my life is turned upside down. I feel as lost today as I did 5 months ago. To be honests as soon as Daniel gotContinue reading “Today marks 5 months”
If it wasn’t for you ..
We will all bloom again.
The stillness after death
The weeks that follow bereavement seems to be the quietest of all. My voice, my writing have been my survival mode since March 2021, that’s exactly why I started this blog only two weeks after Daniel passed, yet as time has gone by, I felt my words and my thoughts escaping me more and more.Continue reading “The stillness after death”
Surviving Widowhood 